The Drawing Board

Moments of complete apathy are the best for new creations.

~ Philip Breedveld

Who is this Philip Breedveld? I found the quote where I find all the epigraphs I use here at The Cheek, so I figured his must be a household name.

Alas, there is no philipbreedveld.com.

I searched for his books on Amazon and found nothing.

He doesn’t have a wiki.

So I tried Googling him.

Found a Photoshop Showcase featuring a possible Philip Breedveld sighting.

Also a LinkedIn profile of an architect named Philip Breedveld who lives in the Netherlands.

And then there’s this interesting possibility, a gentleman from the Philippines who, thanks to a “Master’s Course” taken through The National Board of Professional and Ethical Standards, is now able to . . .

. . . develop and use the power we all have within us–the power to BELIEVE and the power to DO! Now . . . people are turning to me looking to unlock that magic power in their minds called the subconscious. For whatever reason, stop smoking, losing weight without a diet, improving memory, or increasing their self-esteem, I am able to help them!

You know what, dear Tweaker? Whoever he is, Philip Breedveld can bite me.

This morning, when I posted this, I possessed a shred of hope. And you came through for me, posting encouraging comments and sending well-wishes. I dared to imagine, to dream the impossible.

Now? It’s all darkness and rain out my window.

I knew it was a long shot. And this evening? Confirmation. An email and a phone call and a “status quo” are what I have. There will be no offer worth considering “for the time being.” My old friend left the dugout, headed out to take a cut for me, and went down swinging. I thanked him for trying, told him I appreciated all he did on my behalf. When the time is right, perhaps he’ll step up to the plate again.

Until then, it’s back to the drawing board. Back to the dead end where feelings are blunt and emotions have lost their savor.

Tell me, Philip Breedveld, how this is a breeding ground for new creations? But you’ll have to do it for free . . .

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9 thoughts on “The Drawing Board

  1. Shoot! I’m sorry. Allow yourself to experience the blunt feelings for a bit, but don’t hang out there too long. I know you won’t. Taking deep breaths for you… join me when you’re ready.

  2. I prefer Greenday’s philosophy: I drank a six pack of apathy…Life’s a bitch and so am I.

    I’m sorry the job didn’t work out. I’m a pessimistic person by nature, you know I am. But even I believe that something will happen for you, or that you will make something happen.

  3. I’m sorry your hopes and hope was dashed. I’ve been there and still am. I read this morning’s post and have to say I took the ick, part-time job in retail. It’s low pay, lousy hours and sore muscles. I can’t wait until I can sit on my backside again doing a job I love! I wasn’t laid off, I was forced out. It was humiliating.
    But, I believe I’m going to find a job I love and so will you. It’s coming. We just have to be patient. So wallow for awhile, I certainly did, then come out swinging! I’m wishing you good luck and more hope!

  4. I prefer Gretzky’s “you miss 100% of the shots you don’t take” to apathy.

    Keep trying. Something will present itself to you, or at least make itself discoverable.

  5. Well, damnation. (Although, you did make it sound like it would have been very upsetting to have to commute there) With all due respect to Heather and Aragon, I prefer Gwen’s approach, “Life’s a bitch and so am I”.

    and, you know that’s true in my case.

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